That Sunday I dreamt of what motherhood was going to be like. I was filled with confidence that I could do the job. I had always known that I was meant to be a mother. Yet, I was young and really had no idea what lay ahead of me.
Less than three months later when my crying newborn baby girl was placed on my chest, I was almost overwhelmed with emotion. As I touched her and tried to comfort her, exhausted from the task of birthing her, I praised God for entrusting me with the job of being her mother.
Nearly elven years later, I am still praising God for blessing me with that baby girl (and her three brothers). I could never have anticipated the joys and trials motherhood would bring. There were so many things I didn't know.
I didn't know...
...that hearing my baby cry would make me want to do anything I could to see her smile instead.
Julia 1999
...what it is like to function on almost no sleep because of a sick baby.
...how my baby's first smile could melt my heart.
James 2002
...how quickly a toddler can go from happy mode to tantrum mode.
...that my baby's giggle could make the problems of the world fade away.
Joshua 2005
...how many mistakes I would make.
...what it is like to nurse a baby and watch him grow and thrive.
Joseph 2008
...that even though I don't always get to do the things that I "want" to do, there is nothing I would rather do than take care of my children.
...how special (and sometimes frustrating) it would be to watch my children interact.
Julia and James 2002
...that I would never be the same person I was before, and that I wouldn't miss the "old" me at all.
...just how much I would love my children.
2010
I could probably fill a book with all of the things I didn't know and have yet to learn about being a mom. Yet, I am so thankful that God chose to bless me with such precious gifts in spite of what I didn't know.
I pray that God will continue to guide me as I go about the task of being a mom.
I am linking this post to Finer Things Friday at The Finer Things in Life because being a mom truly is a finer thing.
3 comments:
Great post! It's kind of the emotion I was trying to portray when I wrote the poem "I'm a Momma" over on Of Such is the Kingdom.
Thanks!
What a beautiful post! Beautiful pictures and beautiful words. Made me stop and remember all I have to be thankful for. And maybe to go get the baby books out :)
Beautiful post and you have a precious family. Happy Mother;s Day
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