
Eleven years ago tonight I found out I was going to be a mother. My life was forever forever changed the moment I saw two lines.
I had never taken a pregnancy test before, but just had a feeling that I was pregnant. I went to buy a test after work because I had felt slightly nauseous that morning.
I remember that night so well. I was almost scared to look at the test. When I saw that it was positive I shouted for joy.
My husband was coaching at a basketball game, so I left the test on the bathroom sink. When he got home he asked me what it meant and I told him that he was going to be a daddy. We hugged and kissed and thought about what the future would hold.
Tonight, eleven years later, as my family of
six went to our oldest son's Christmas program I thanked God for blessing us with four beautiful children. I am not sure that I had any thoughts on my mind eleven years ago other than how wonderful it would be to have a baby of our own.
JT and Jackie December 1998

I do wish I could have stayed like that happy 24 year old version of myself every other time I saw two lines on a pregnancy test. Eleven years ago I never knew the pain of miscarriage. I had read about miscarriage, but never knew that it would happen to me four times.
Yet, in those sad times of loss I became the woman I am now. Without those scars I am not sure I would have been able to be of help to my friends who have experienced loss. Maybe I wouldn't have appreciated just how precious and fragile life really is.
So, tonight, eleven years after finding out I was going to be a mom, I am grateful for all the highs and lows I have experienced during my time as a mother. God has truly blessed us.
Upon reading this post again I felt like I should clarify that the positive test I got eleven years ago resulted in the birth of our first child-our daughter Julia. Check out
Heavenly Homemakers to see what others are grateful for this Gratituesday.
Proverbs 3:5-65 Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
6 In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.

Eleven Years Ago Tonight