Have you ever had a time when you had a desire for something, but couldn't imagine asking God to bless you with this desire because He had already blessed you so much?
Some of you may remember that back in
June I sold or gave away almost all of the baby items I had been saving all of these years. I cried as I went through each box, not because I would miss the items themselves, because I thought I would never have another baby.
My husband and I had pretty much decided that we should probably stop having children. We have four beautiful, healthy children and figured that our three boys and one girl were all that God had planned for us.
I had given God control of our family size many years ago, but had tried to take that control back. Sometimes God laughs at us when we try to take control of situations.
We had been using natural family planning since the birth of our youngest 2 1/2 years ago. I thought I had a good handle on my cycles which were averaging 34-35 days. When I started my cycle on July 13th I still thought I had things figured out.
When I ovulated a week earlier than normal I started to realize I didn't have everything figured out. On the morning I ovulated I awoke to the sound of a voice telling me that I was going to have a baby girl and that we were to name her Janna Caroline.*
I kept those words in the back of my mind over the next several weeks as we were busy finishing our kitchen project, getting ready for school to start, etc. I started feeling pretty tired and took naps every day that I could. At 5 weeks I told my husband that it was a good possibility I might be pregnant. He said to wait a few days before I tested since I might have been stressed or something.
I waited until it had been 5 weeks and 5 days since my cycle started before I took a test. It was positive within seconds instead of the three minutes it said it would take. My husband and I were very happy that God had chosen to bless us in this way.
I called a midwife the next morning and got in right away. She confirmed the pregnancy and ordered some blood tests. After
hearing my history she also ordered an ultrasound.
The baby measured exactly the 5 weeks and 6 days it should have and the heart rate was 153. My 2 1/2 year old was with me for the appointment and when he looked at the ultrasound screen he said "baby". I don't know how he even knew.
The tiredness has continued and I have experienced afternoon and evening nausea which I am actually happy about because I know they are good signs. It is also why my blogging has been so sporadic.
This morning I had a full exam and the midwife said everything looks great and that my uterus is the size it should be at 8 weeks.
I am overjoyed that there is a little life growing inside of me. Regardless of whether the baby is a boy or girl we will love him or her no matter what. However, I do believe the baby is a girl because of what God told me that morning several weeks ago. My daughter would be so excited to have a little sister. :-)
We have been praying for this baby every day and are thankful for all of those who are lifting us up in prayer. God is awesome.
*I looked up the meanings of each name and found that Janna means "God's gift" and that Caroline means "beautiful woman". I thought it would be fitting to think of the baby as "God's beautiful gift".

Pregnancy Update - 8 Weeks